1 post tagged “cycles”

So, this morning a new acquaintance asks if I had a good weekend.  I replied that it was ... eventful.  He said "Good!"  I said "No, not really."  He said "Nothing bad I hope..."  I replied "No, it's just... life."

I'm often struck by the cyclic nature of life, the universe, and everything.  This weekend it hit me hard.

We celebrated Mabon this weekend, which is autumn equinox to all you non-pagans.  Just after I did the cleansing of the space we were going to have ritual in, I started to get messages.  Now, I haven't gotten any in a loooong time, so to just start getting them unsolicited was a little disconcerting.  But they flowed all evening.  Even for the new guy that showed up for the first time.  Now that's REALLY unusual.  Messages came for three people, but none for me.  So I went out on the porch and sat in the cool dark evening air and closed my eyes, asking if there was anything for me.  They immediately started talking about money, and that it wasn't anything new, and that I'd survived this road before, blah blah blah.  I opened my eyes and dismissed it, thinking it was just me and my own concerns coming through.  When I went back to ask again I was met with an immediate, loud, "Go ask Lisa."

"Huh?  No, I want to know if there is anything in my..."
"Forget it.  Ask Lisa for a reading.  That is all."

"That is all" is their usual 'end of file' indicator.  It tells me that nothing else is going to come through, no matter how much I ask.  A little put off, I went inside and asked Lisa for a tarot reading.  She gladly obliged.  It started before she had even finished dealing the center card.

"Damn, emotions boy," she said.  "Okay, there's a lot here about money."
She paused and interpreted a few more cards silently.
"You're REALLY worried about money right now.  I mean, so much so that it overshadows everything else in your life at the moment.  And you're so calm a person that even those who really know you don't see it.  It's going to be alright, you know.  It's not going to come out as good as it was, but you've been down this road before.  You survived it then, you'll survive it this time."

I've gotten confirmation before.  I've had a few people come back and say that I hit the nail on the head before.  No one has EVER directly quoted messages I'd received before.  It was simultaneously creepy as hell and somewhat gratifying.  I'm no idiot - I know what 'listening to voices in my head' spells out to anyone with a psychology background, no matter what the context.  It's moments like this, however, that renew my faith in my ability.  I'm not crazy, and I'm not just making these messages up.  I needed that.

And I needed to be reminded that this was just another part of the cycle.  The wheel turns.